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Getting back in the saddle again

I’ve spent the last 3.5 weeks (since putting Kyle to sleep) in various emotional states, ranging from super depressed to almost numb.  For a while, I found a bit of respite in my old standby, writing fanfiction, but now I’m in the mood to pull away from that again. (There’s only so much fanfiction you can write when the show that inspired you to publish your works for others to see in the first place starts sucking and the characters turn into pod people!)  It seems that each time I start working on my novel, something happens to make me stop.  And by the time I’m ready to pick it up again, the story and the characters have changed in ways I hadn’t planned.  My notes and ideas for this novel are so fragmented and when I go to write and get frustrated, I end up back in fanfiction-land again because it’s easy and satisfying.  (And face it, we all can’t be EL James.  Not that I would ever claim 50 Shades of Grey as my own since it’s both horribly written and moronic.)

So anyway, there really isn’t a point to this post other than to say that I’m trying to move forward and get focused on writing again.  Something of substance, I mean, not fanfic.  *sigh*

The novel · Writing

My writing process of late: a big WTF

Struggle for days to get anything written. Start and stop. Start. Stop. Swear. Storm away from netbook in a rage.

Try again later.  No dice.

Get to work the next day. Become greatly inspired while handling mundane tasks. Brain swims in ideas all morning. Write three pages of witty banter, foreplay, and smut during lunch hour.

Not sure what that says about me. Either I’m inspired at really odd times or I find great joy in writing sex scenes? *shrugs*

The novel · Writing

…wait…who are you?

I have a serious problem.

I don’t know my characters. At all. I’m working on some of my very earliest scenes of my novel and the interactions and the dialogue just feels so…wooden.  I’ve sketched out their basic personalities but I now realize that I have a lot more still do to.  This week, instead of focusing on plot development, I intend to jot down every tiny little thing about them that pops into my head – likes, dislikes, memories, past experiences, regrets, hopes, etc.  I have to make them feel more three-dimensional than they do right now in order to write them the way that they deserve.

This “writing a book” thing is exhausting!